Quick Smoking Now

Today i quit smoking weed?

Been smoking pot for almost a year now. I had smoked a lot of pot back when i was younger in junior high but i had stopped when i got to high school. When i was smoking pot in junior high, i developed bad depression, and i was suicidal. Not because the weed itself, but because when i wasn’t smoking it i could not function at all. I cut myself and became bi polar without it. Things got really bad. So i made an oath to stop and i achieved it all throughout high school. But **** happens and i had another relapse after i graduated. I took a couple of hits from a blunt at a party i went to an from that point on I’ve been smoking every other day or 2. I’m not going to tell you my whole story but to sum things up i basically lost most of my real friends as they were substituted for the ones who only hang out with you when you want to smoke a dub. For a while the high i got felt great, it felt as if i saw the world with a more clear perspective. But the more i smoked the weed tasted bitter and bitter every time. I found my self developing the same depressions as i had in junior high because without the weed i couldn’t function. Nobody was noticing me as a poet, a person, a skater, everyone was looking at me as a stoner who has no job and isn’t going to college. Skateboard sponsors would try to contact me but i would be too lazy to make an effort and contact them back. My life was slowly fading. The main reason why i stopped was because i was beginning to see the darker sides of life. Corrupt government, robot society, materialistic woman, rich snobs, and pointless war. I found GOD. I found the truth about the world we live in and i encourage you to educate yourselves about this cruel world. Bottom line is i quit. I am becoming a negative influence to my brother and my friends. I’m tired of getting the munchies, i’m tired of staying up all night tripping on acid cartoons, i’m tired of woman only talking to me because i smoke pot and they think its cool. All my life I’ve been hiding in a shell. Its time to come out…

but the problem is i still think about weed and i cant get over the concept of it. I't just feels so good to smoke it. Can anybody give me some helpful insight on how i can eliminate this feeling???